ainslee.

i locked my damn keys in my car…

FRUSTRATION.

stress: a state of mental or emotional strain or suspense

i think my name should be included in this definition.

school, work, laundry, cleaning, blah.

too too much.

but it’s ok because i am loved. i am in love with the best boyfriend ever. he makes it all worth while

i have learned so much.

i never thought i would have such good friends as i do now. each day my mind is blown at the capacity in which i am loved by my friends.

i never though i would be able to trust someone as much as i trust my best friend

i never realized how much i would depend on my friend to make it through some of my toughest days

all throughout high school i thought i had a best friend. i thought she was my best friend because she gave me rides to school, convinced my parents that i shouldn’t be grounded, consoled me when i broke up with someone, or found me a date to prom.

the summer after my senior year i thought my best friend was the person who helped me clean up all the beer bottles at the end of a party, helped me sneak back into the house after a long night out, or hugged me goodbye as i went off to college.

now, friendship is something real. it’s the person that gives me the better of two choices, holds me hand when i’m scared, tells me bible verses to make my bad days good, helps me put the past behind me yet still understands when i need to hold on to it a little longer, goes out of the way to make time for me. it’s the person that knows exactly what to say and knows what i’m thinking without me even say me a word. essentially, it’s about love.

i wouldn’t be where i am today without my best friends and to me that means the most. i cherish every moment i have, and i am fully appreciative.

thanks for making my days amazing.

You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. After all, what’s a life anyway? We’re born, we live, we die. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to life up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone’s life can stand a little of that.

googled my name today.. found out Ainslee’s was a popular all-fiction magazine from the 20’s

i always start one of these and then never stick with it. but I’ve made it my new years resolution to make a post daily. whether it be a picture i like, a quote i find, a bible verse that intrigues me, or just getting my feelings out— i think it’ll be good for me.

with that being said, this post in going to be short and sweet. i’ve got walking pneumonia and i need to get to bed.

this past weekend was Behold, the church camp I work at every year. once again it was beyond amazing. i think my campers taught me more about faith and life than i could have ever conveyed to them and i walked away with some amazing new friendships. church camp is always so refreshing and a great way to start the year off — i’m graduating soon and i hope this won’t be my last year. i’ll be terribly sad.

school started and i like all my classes, which is a nice change. i’m actually taking a class that teaches you how to teach how to study ( say that 3 times fast) and its AMAZING. each week we learn something challenging and we are given a different way to study. this week we are learning greek and latin root words, and it is super hard. i’m excited to conquer some new things that i never thought i would have the chance to learn

mom is cracking me up these days. everyday i get a new update on how many “sleeps” we have till our cruise. AH, i’m so excited.

kk, so thats all the mumble jumble thats going on in my head right now. until next time.

“You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Pslam 139:13-14”